Dec 23, 2012

I don't even know how to start..
hmm... so I'll just write down whatever pops in my mind...

I wanted to give him a Christmas gift.
I dunno why, but I just had the urge to give it to him, probably hoping that this could make him a bit happier, (he had been sad for quite a while now)
I may not know why he was down lately, but I just wanted to make him a little happy.
I mean, I know, it might be crazy, we haven't talked much at all. I'm practically a stranger to him, but I really really wanted to.

So taking up all my courage and wishing hard on my luck, I  bought him a gift and went to school (without any clue whether he'll come or not).

SATURDAY.
I stood there for 3 or so hours, waiting for him.
I could have texted him or something, but well, that would make me TOO much of a stalker already so I decided not to.
Sadly, well, I didn't see him. So I took my gift home and waited for another chance to give it to him.

The following FRIDAY
A week has passed, I still held on to my gift, still hoping that I would be able to give it to him. As I sat down the office, I received a text that he was at some printing company, my friend happened to be printing there as well. With her help, I found out that he was going to school.

My heart felt joy. I could see him, I thought. So though I was out an hour early, I rushed to where they were.

But alas, he was gone already.

Thinking he might be at school, I went. He was there, my friends told me, but for some reason, we still didn't meet.

He was so close, but still, we missed each other.

Still hoping, I waited for three whole hours again, outside our campus. Still, the long wait was in vain. No sign of him was found so I went home with my friend.

Today, I woke up from a dream that I was able to actually give it to him. He smiled at me and accepted it. How I really wished it did happen. But I guess, it wasn't meant to be.

I've done my part and if it was meant to happen, it will happen.
I've just gotta trust that my father in heaven has a greater plan for me. :)